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some random convo with saiful.

i'll be spending my sleep today alone. *insert sad face* both small sis and bro had went to their respective camps for 3 days. they'll be coming back home tomorrow. and then big sis refused to sleep here so she sleep at aunt house instead. so there i go, alone on the bedroom. i bet it's going to feel abit awkwardly spacious. the 4 express as well as the 5 normal acad classes were brought to Singapore Polytechnic this afternoon for their open house. the place was pretty crowded. mostly with secondary school students. somehow i managed to recognise some familiar faces. the whole thing was great. i managed to explore more into different courses. but then i've yet to have a rough idea on which courses i'm going to take. perhaps i need to explore the others polytechnic's courses as well.
i was pretty much an entertainer in school today. my awfully blur-crappytalks-nabilla's-smile-and-the-techno-dance attitude. okay i supposed it would be better if i called myself an irritator instead of entertainer. haha. apart from that, i fear myself for bringing back the old bad habit. what i mean is, bad habits such as sleeping! i realised i had been dozing off during some of the lessons. oh gawd. go away you evil habit! -_-
the rest of the day, i spent my time alone at home while waiting for mum and dad to reach home. sis was already out before that. i cant finish and [perhaps the specific word is 'concentrate'] on my homeworks. i ended up clicking the camera buttons and took some snapshots of myself. i was really bored ya know. and dad gave me a big explosions when he reached home. "thanks eh pa. kentot tu biar maintain. da mcm bom meletop kat dalam air" -_- and this picture below was taken during the trip to SP. i was bored and i was trying to imitate " THE GRINCH" hahahaa. funny? ugly? adorable? i know. :

early in the morning, got caught for coloured hair. ok that clearly show i dyed jet black already. mom was somehow frustrated with teacher. she say stuff like they are not being reasonable cause the colour is not that obvious unlike blue or blonde. i had a bad start today. not only being caught by teachers, i did not have much sleep and my body was aching. thank god, i could last in class the whole day. with the help of haikal smsing with me. thanks eh small boy.

i want to grow my hair long. i never in my life had my hair long. the longest was only shouldnt length. how pathetic could i get? -_-
but then..it seems that my hair is growing very slowly. like a snail. like myself. gawd. it will take forever!

"bella, da tak contact ngan firdaus lagi?"

mum kept questioning that despite knowing that it is over. although it's irritating, it do paused me for a moment to think about you. and then i'll begin to have the thought of wanting you back. and then my mind go haywire. perhaps, i would really appreciate if we could set a date and have a coffee-talk one day. wouldn't that be great? i hope so too. imyl.

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i couldnt agree less when people say 'looks can be deceiving'. you are turning twenty this year yet so small. so much for your goatie-matured looks but you are still as young as sixteen year old kid at heart. i love disturbing you by calling names such as 'small boy' but i'll try not to make it as a habit. the cutest thing is when you get all worked up by those two words but hate the part when you squeeze my head under your arms. its painful and you caused me to have headaches in the end. not forgetting this. kindly reduce your 'temptation' to tickle me. its irritating. i just couldnt help it seeing you smile. it's a killer. what matter is, i had fun with you today. dont hesitate to share your thoughts and problems. you know i dont care and i'll listen for sure. so yeah. forgive me. i supposed its my fault for being late and it rained. you end up not feelling well. i am so bad. pfft.

they are my companion in class. they are my goody-goody friends. they are my sayangs. i dont think i can last in class without them. they are my happy pills. school today was abit dull and scary. new class mentor scared me. O level is so near. and i really need to buck up like really2 buck up. sheesh. semoga ku berubah dan maju ke hadapan untuk kejayaan! ;)

from not trying to be angry with mum. she made and forced me too. im very dissapointed with myself. although i really dont intend to talk to her in that rude manner, i hurt her really alot. i hate it when she tried to do something when it supposed not to be done like that. cos in the end we, her children, cant accept it and then end up talkbing back to her rudely and then she go cursing here and there. we all dont intend to do that rude stuff, she somehow have that power like forcing us to do it.

whatever it is, im sorry mum. i love you alot than you had never expected.