you have a strong feeling of affection for someone but you didn't do anything about it.and i mean nothing at all because you are too afraid to open up a conversation with him instead you end up giving him picture comments only.but then you are really looking forward for something or maybe a miracle to happen between the two of you and again you didn't do anything about it, not even a saying a simple hi to him but you still insist and keep on dreaming that you want something to happen.that's completely mental.

i've been eyeing on you since like ages.there's one time i really regretted in my whole life when i end up giving my attention to your friends and not to you because i was actually too timid to give you that much attention.at the same time i wished that particular night stay night forever. remember when we get so nervous to kiss each of our cheeks as a forfeit given by your friends and when you gave me that kiss, i flew to the cloud and you went all red. remember when you slowly reached my hand under your cardigan and hold it tight because you were all shy to let your friend see. i wish i could held it till the next morning when we walked to the train station. it is crazy but you never fail to make my heart skip a beat. and yeah sometimes i do think that you're my 'mr.right'

heaven is not so kind to me because i have this stong feeling that your friends somehow in anyway detest me. and i wonder if you do too. prolly cause i'm not pretty or whatever towards you guys. you are the only one that always smiled at me when we bumped into each other. but your friends gave me that arrogant face. i really do feel like going to any beauty salon to get myself a flawless complexion and then to the hair salon to have extensions for myself just to fairly compete with those kind of girls that you guys eyed for and just woo you without any doubts in mind.

i always warned myself not to walk alone at town as fear that i might bumped into you and when you smiled at me as a substitude for your 'hi and bye' to me, i might just passed out that very moment. i could solemnly swear that you have a killer smile. even by looking at your picture, you could make me go weak and as though my joints are all loose. i wonder when i will have the guts to type a simple H,I to you in msn. i know i cant cause for no reason i have this deep pessimsm about it.

no doubt, i always have big smile paste on my face when it comes to you. :)

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